Birthday Day....

Tomorrow I will be a 49 year old...how in the world did I get to be so old??? It seems just like yesterday I was 20 years old, having my first son. Now that first son will be 29 next year. I don't really feel old, but I still have some "old" issues that are creeping up on me. I am not as healthy as I would like to be, so that is my goal before I turn 50. I need to lose some weight and get healthier. I have had friends my age who have had major health issues and I would like to avoid those. So for my prayer warriors out there, and you know who you are...please pray for the next year that I am able to stick to my plan.

I didn't think it would bother me to have this birthday, but it is very much so. I wonder if I have done all the things I should have up to this point? I know that there are things I wished I had not done, but God has always had His hand in this life of mine and I need to acknowledge that He is indeed in control. There are things I would still like to do, places I would like to visit. I have not been on the east coast and would love to visit New England in the fall. I want to have more grandkids, of which I have no control over!! I want to go camping with my hubby, I want to spend as much time as possible with my Mom, I want to go on a missions trip somewhere..and I want my personal relationship with God to grow. I should write a list of the things I want to do before I retire and the ones I want to do afterwards..LOL Since I have a few years more to work, the list of what to do before I retire should be very long...

Maybe when I wake up tomorrow I will have a different feeling of being a 49 year old woman. Of course I will wake with damp jammies from the night sweats, puffy eyes and really bad bed hair, but I will wake with the knowledge that God loves me, hubby and kids love me and I can even love this 49 year me!!!

Struggling...Church...Life

I am in a very strange mood. I love my church and enjoy being involved. But I am struggling with some issues. For some reason I am not interested in attending Sunday School classes (known as ABF (Adult Bible Fellowship) at Hazel Dell. I really enjoy the lessons and the teacher, but for some reason I am not interested in attending. I am not sure why this is and I feel bad for not going. I love going to worship service and don't want to miss that. Sometimes it is just life in general that gets in the way of ABF. Our class meets at 8:15am and it is very difficult to get up and going that early. Seems like every weekend we have been busy with family. This weekend we picked up our granddaughter, who is 2 1/2, on Friday night. We spent Saturday playing with dolls and coloring books and watching Handy Mandy!! It was so much fun. Then we took her home and attended a great program and dinner at their church. Which meant we also got to spend some time with new grandson, who is almost 5 weeks!!! He has grown so much and Duane and I both just love holding and cuddling him. So that meant we were late getting home Saturday night. So when the clock said 6:30am this morning, we both turned over to snuggle!!! So this week I am going to have to really pray about this situation. I need to attend, but I WANT to WANT to go...does that make sense? We are very active in our church and have made some great friends. But this issue is really bugging me. I will keep you all posted as to what becomes of this issue. But if you have some extra space for a prayer for me, just pray that I can get back into being interested in our ABF class.

Holidays....

Sometimes I wish everyone would do thinks like I do and think like I do!!! I know that sounds vain, but it would sure make my world easier to get along with... Like Thanksgiving..that is my husband's FAVORITE holiday. He loves being with family, eating turkey and pecan pie. He is very much into football and loves to watch the games. My family does not do the big dinner thing so much anymore. In fact, both of my boys will be with new daughter in law in New Jersey with her family. We will be at his Mom's house on Thanksgiving Day evening. We are spending the morning at a church on the south side serving dinners to people who have no where to go or food to eat. So I have invited Duane's Dad and step Mom to dinner on Saturday evening, along with his sisters. Step Daughter and family will be there also. But I would really like my Mom to come and spend the weekend with us. She is alone alot and I don't get over there often enough. So I thought it would be fun to have her come stay with us. I don't think she will though because we are having "company" on Saturday and she does not want to intrude? I don't get that. I know having blended families are hard, but how do you get to know them more unless you spend time with them. And besides, the "company" will only be there from 3pm on Saturday until about 9pm that evening. We would still have all day on Friday and Sunday to do things. I am going to have to pray about this alot. I don't want one part of my family keeping another part away. Whatever happened to The Waltons???

Wedding Moments...

It was just a perfect day...no rain, bright sunshine...beautiful. The wedding went off without a hitch. The bride was so radiant and the groom was very handsome. They had a lovely ceremony and I think the whole thing was enjoyed by all. I didn't cry, but almost did when Joe and I danced our dance. We have a very funny story about the song we danced to, "Blessed" by Elton John. Joe had called and asked me to think of a song we could dance to. So I started looking on line to find songs that mothers of the grooms and the groom dances to and this one came up. I have always liked Elton John's music (NOT his lifestyle though!!) and Duane liked the words too. So just as I was about to call Joe to tell him I had found one, he called me and yes, you guessed it....he had picked the same song!!! is that just amazing? It was a very special moment as we danced to this song and I was so proud to be his Mom.

Too Much To Do....That is being a MOM!!!

Today is Friday and I was thinking of all the things that have to be done before next Friday. I don't like to wish my life away because I really enjoy my life. But right now I am ready for the next week to be over. Tomorrow I am going to oldest son's house to help him pack. He is moving next Thursday in with his brother and is starting a new job with Duane on the 27th. He needed to make some changes in his life and start again after his divorce this past January. It will be very nice having both boys in the city with me again. Sunday we have church, which I didn't get to attend last week due to the nasty cold I had. I am hoping to get laundry done but I would really like to go visit new grand baby Leighton!! I am having withdrawal from the cuddling baby!! Monday is house cleaning night. Tuesday night we have our small group. Wednesday is hair color and cut for the wedding. Thursday is meeting for Sunday School class party on Sunday. Friday is wedding rehearsal. Saturday is wedding. Sunday is donut duty, Sunday School class party and fixing lunch for Joe and Kim's friends and family to have while watching them open wedding gifts. I just got really tired reading what I just typed!!! I think I should go home tonight and take a long nap, it will be the only one I get!!!

I Know Why God Gave Me Kids When I Was Young!!!!!

I had my first son when I was 19 and my second when I was 23 and now, being a grandma at 48, I know why I am so glad I had them when I was young!!! We picked Sydney up Friday night and I don't think she stopped talking, moving, asking questions or just being cute until we took her home on Sunday afternoon!!! And during all of this weekend, I had caught a terrible cold that was making me feel terrible. But we still had a wonderful time. We took her to the coolest pumpkin patch on Saturday, and she had a great time. They had baby animals, lots of pumpkins and even a corn box to play in...(which is the same as a sand box, but with corn!!!) She got to pick out some pumpkins just her size, play with other kids and pet the calves. Then on Sunday, since I had a meeting after church, Sydney helped Papaw clean up the coffee area that we were in charge of for this week. She made several new friends and I am sure the coffee area is the cleanest ever!!! After church we went to Chuck E. Cheese!!!! Now 20 years ago when I took my boys there, it had terrible pizza, crowded play areas and it seemed Chuck just didn't show up much. This one in Indy was awesome!! The first thing that was just so neat was that when you walked in, each person in YOUR group got a invisible ink stamp of the same number. I was not sure what that was for, but when we left...they check to make sure you have all the people you brought in and ONLY the people who you brought in!!! Unfortunately now days you have to worry about someone taking your kids, even at a pizza joint. But their system works great. And now at Chuck E. Cheese, the pizza was so good!! They had tons of things for toddlers to play with and on and each game took only 1 token. We got a large pizza, (loaded with good stuff), 4 drinks and 40 tokens for $19.00!!! Of course we had a coupon from www.chuckecheese.com which is a great place to sign up for coupons if you plan on going anytime soon. Sydney played, ate and played some more for 2 hours!! By now my cold is worse, but I was enjoying watching her have a good time, I didn't even notice! When we got ready to leave, I told Papaw that she would be asleep before we got out of Indy and sure enough, right after we went past 116th street on I69, she was out!!! We finally got home around 6pm and we were both so tired!! But having grand kids is so much fun and we are looking forward to when Leighton can come too and when we have more grand kids....we just have to get more of our kids married first!!!

So Blessed...

Tonight we are picking up our granddaughter so that she can spend the weekend with us. I am very excited to see her and the new brother, but I also know from experience that I am going to be exhausted by Sunday!! It seems I have forgotten how much energy a 2 year old has and this one I think has twice as much as normal. But one thing I do know for sure, is that we are so blessed to have healthy grand kids. I have been keeping up with some blogs of parents who have sick children and I know in my heart that God only gives sick kids to special parents. I don't know what I would do if I had to deal with what some of these parents go through. So this weekend, as we spend time with our granddaughter, I will be continually thanking God for our blessings and I will be praying for those who are struggling with sick children. I will pray for healthy and wellness, comfort and peace to each and everyone of them.