Christmas 2008

Well Christmas is finally over. I'm glad and sad at the same time. Since we have a blended family, we have several celebrations. First, we had Christmas with my family on Dec 21st. It was so much fun! We all got together at my youngest son's home and probably had one of the funnest Christmases we have ever had!!! Everyone got along, enjoyed the games we played, exchanged gifts with a new twist and ate too much!!! But even Mom had a great time!! Next was the best gathering, Christmas Eve service at Hazel Dell with our church family. I LOVE Christmas Eve services. Our pastor, all the staff and their families do the service and it is so meaningful. Very spiritual and just makes the whole season come together. My favorite part is the end with the candle light part. Just gives the true meaning to the season. Next we were at step-daughters house with hubby's kids. Sometimes this can be very stressful, but this year was very calm and quiet. Everyone liked their gifts and we enjoyed the granddaughter and grandson so much. Love watching little kids open gifts..miss that once our kids have grown up. Next was mother in laws on the 27th. Most of the siblings were there and a good time was had by all. Enjoyed seeing more extended family, some we had not seen for a few years, and once again, lots of nice presents and good food. Mother in law had started a new family tradition this year by having hubby, who is oldest of her children, read the Christmas story from Luke. The little kids were really interested and listened so well. Hope this is one tradition that continues. Finally, yesterday, the 28th, we had Christmas with my boys and daughter in law. Had a wonderful dinner of prime rib...daughter in law is a fabulous cook!!! Played some games on Wii and had a great time. Oldest son got me a Colts sweatshirt that I love, especially since I didn't have any Colts wear and youngest son and daughter in law got me the coolest blanket/throw/snuggle cover. I have already used it even!!! Hubby got what he likes most, Sears gift card!! He loves shopping for tools...guess they are like shoes, cant have enough!! So now we are done. Had to go back to work today to rest..LOL But not really, because next is tax season. Hard to believe it is here again. First we have to move our office to a new location though. Friday is the moving day and I think things will be very stressful at the office until that is done!! Hopefully things will go smoothly and we will get all moved and ready for work soon. Hope all of you had a wonderful Christmas and will look forward to a great New Year!!!

Brookside Youth Center

This Thursday hubby and I will be spending our day helping members of our church prepare a Christmas dinner for over 200 kids and their parents at Brookside Youth Center. This is the second year that we have done this for the center and let me tell you that the volunteers get a far bigger blessing than the kids!!! These kids come to Brookside every day after school for a meal, mentoring, tutoring and other classes. They live in the highest crime rate and prostitution rate area of Indy. They are bused in and they are also bused home. Most of them only get this meal and the one they get at school. On weekends, God only knows. During the summer, Brookside has a day camp every week day from 9am to 3pm. One of hubby and Is best friends is a member of the board for Brookside. We will start cooking around noon, the kids will arrive around 3:30pm and go to their classes. We will then provide a craft time for them, dinner and each child will receive a blanket, hat and gloves to take home as a gift. We will also have a worship time and singing time. I am looking so forward to doing this and being a part of this great program. These kids need one thing more than even the food, they just need attention. They come from homes that are filled with stress, poverty and parents, usually only one, who just don't have time for kids because they are just trying to make ends meet. It is a very sad story, but one that is growing by leaps and bounds in this time of recession, crime and a Satan filled world. I just hope that we can make a difference, even if only for a short time in each of their lives. We also hope that we can show God's love to their parents. Let them know we are here for them, we are praying for them and that God loves them very much. It will be a very long day, but I already know that I will be filled with the Holy Spirit.

Tis The Season...

I love all the aspects of Christmas. I love being in church on Christmas Eve and participating in the candle light services. I look forward to driving around neighborhoods looking at the lighting displays and trees that you can see in the windows. Going downtown Indianapolis is tons of fun during the holiday. There are the store windows that are so cute, the lights on the Monument Circle and the really tall toy solders guarding the circle. I have lived here for alittle over 6 years and I have still not made it downtown to see the lighting of the circle. Seems like it is always so cold!! I love the holiday, I don't like the weather..LOL We have gone to Christmas at the Zoo and it is really beautiful. They have lights everywhere and there are ice carvings going on, hot chocolate being served and Santa makes a grand appearance. This year we are taking our 2 yr old granddaughter and I know that I will see things through her eyes that I have not seen before. She has a way of making even the cold fun. We are putting up our tree tomorrow evening and I am really looking forward to that. We have a 7 foot tree that we decorate in traditional red and green lights, lots of glass hearts and plaid ribbon bows. We have been collecting rustic ornaments as a couple for the past 4 years. We both love birds, feeding them all year round and watching them from our deck in the spring, summer and fall. So we have several bird themed ornaments. Before I was married, I always had a frilly tree..(that is what my boys called it), but now that I have someone who wants to share this part of the holiday with me, it's fun to do something we both like. Saturday evening hubby's Mom and Step Dad are coming for dinner and then we are taking them to our church's annual Christmas Choir show. It will be lots of beautiful music and fun skits. But even after all this, the one thing I look forward to more than anything is doing Christmas for people who would have had none otherwise. Last year our church started having a Christmas dinner for the kids at Brookside Youth Center. I am in charge of that this year and I will write more to tell you all about it. It is a very special night for lots of inter-city kids. Stay tuned....Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells!!!

Blessings...and Family

We are getting ready to have family overload this weekend. Hubby's parents are divorced and have been very a long time, so we usually have 2 dinners with his family. So tomorrow at 8am we are starting off our holiday by serving. Hubby, myself and teenage son are going to a very low income, high crime rate area of town to help prepare Thanksgiving dinner for anyone who shows up. Just to let you know how far out of our comfort zone we will be, we have to call the person who is in charge when we get there so he can unlock the door for us. They have to keep it locked at all times because of the surrounding neighborhood being unsafe. But I know that God will keep us safe and if He decides it is our time, at least we will be doing His work. After we are finished, we will attend an evening meal at Hubby's Mom's house. All of his siblings and extended family will be there. It will be fun and nice to visit. On Saturday we are hosting a dinner at our subdivision clubhouse for his Dad and siblings again. Not sure who all will be there, but it will be a good time. Hubby's Dad suffered a stroke on May 1st and has lost most of his sight since then. He can see some things but not well. We are just glad he is here and able to be with us. Sunday we are traveling to my Mom's house after church. She likes to go to the cemetery to put the flowers on Dad's grave with my sister and I. It has been a long standing tradition that my sister and I give to our Dad each Christmas a box of chocolate covered cherries. We still do that, but now we have to put them on his grave. Believe it or not, when we go back in the spring, usually before Easter, the boxes are still there! We have had beautiful flowers stolen from his grave, but no one ever touches those cherries..I don't get it, but I'm glad they don't. I wont see my kids because youngest son and new bride drove to New Jersey today to be with her family. (They will be with us for Christmas, you know the routine!) Oldest son will be with his Dad, but I am hoping he joins us on Saturday.

I am thinking by Sunday night I will be feeling very blessed. I love being with family, and as ours grows, it is just the best! I also know that helping with the dinner on Thursday will be a tremendous blessing, not nearly as much to those being served as those who are serving. God works like that alot and it is wonderful. So I hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving. I hope you get to spend time with family and people you love. If you have some time and want to serve, Keystone and 30th, 8am!!!

Birthday Day....

Tomorrow I will be a 49 year old...how in the world did I get to be so old??? It seems just like yesterday I was 20 years old, having my first son. Now that first son will be 29 next year. I don't really feel old, but I still have some "old" issues that are creeping up on me. I am not as healthy as I would like to be, so that is my goal before I turn 50. I need to lose some weight and get healthier. I have had friends my age who have had major health issues and I would like to avoid those. So for my prayer warriors out there, and you know who you are...please pray for the next year that I am able to stick to my plan.

I didn't think it would bother me to have this birthday, but it is very much so. I wonder if I have done all the things I should have up to this point? I know that there are things I wished I had not done, but God has always had His hand in this life of mine and I need to acknowledge that He is indeed in control. There are things I would still like to do, places I would like to visit. I have not been on the east coast and would love to visit New England in the fall. I want to have more grandkids, of which I have no control over!! I want to go camping with my hubby, I want to spend as much time as possible with my Mom, I want to go on a missions trip somewhere..and I want my personal relationship with God to grow. I should write a list of the things I want to do before I retire and the ones I want to do afterwards..LOL Since I have a few years more to work, the list of what to do before I retire should be very long...

Maybe when I wake up tomorrow I will have a different feeling of being a 49 year old woman. Of course I will wake with damp jammies from the night sweats, puffy eyes and really bad bed hair, but I will wake with the knowledge that God loves me, hubby and kids love me and I can even love this 49 year me!!!

Struggling...Church...Life

I am in a very strange mood. I love my church and enjoy being involved. But I am struggling with some issues. For some reason I am not interested in attending Sunday School classes (known as ABF (Adult Bible Fellowship) at Hazel Dell. I really enjoy the lessons and the teacher, but for some reason I am not interested in attending. I am not sure why this is and I feel bad for not going. I love going to worship service and don't want to miss that. Sometimes it is just life in general that gets in the way of ABF. Our class meets at 8:15am and it is very difficult to get up and going that early. Seems like every weekend we have been busy with family. This weekend we picked up our granddaughter, who is 2 1/2, on Friday night. We spent Saturday playing with dolls and coloring books and watching Handy Mandy!! It was so much fun. Then we took her home and attended a great program and dinner at their church. Which meant we also got to spend some time with new grandson, who is almost 5 weeks!!! He has grown so much and Duane and I both just love holding and cuddling him. So that meant we were late getting home Saturday night. So when the clock said 6:30am this morning, we both turned over to snuggle!!! So this week I am going to have to really pray about this situation. I need to attend, but I WANT to WANT to go...does that make sense? We are very active in our church and have made some great friends. But this issue is really bugging me. I will keep you all posted as to what becomes of this issue. But if you have some extra space for a prayer for me, just pray that I can get back into being interested in our ABF class.

Holidays....

Sometimes I wish everyone would do thinks like I do and think like I do!!! I know that sounds vain, but it would sure make my world easier to get along with... Like Thanksgiving..that is my husband's FAVORITE holiday. He loves being with family, eating turkey and pecan pie. He is very much into football and loves to watch the games. My family does not do the big dinner thing so much anymore. In fact, both of my boys will be with new daughter in law in New Jersey with her family. We will be at his Mom's house on Thanksgiving Day evening. We are spending the morning at a church on the south side serving dinners to people who have no where to go or food to eat. So I have invited Duane's Dad and step Mom to dinner on Saturday evening, along with his sisters. Step Daughter and family will be there also. But I would really like my Mom to come and spend the weekend with us. She is alone alot and I don't get over there often enough. So I thought it would be fun to have her come stay with us. I don't think she will though because we are having "company" on Saturday and she does not want to intrude? I don't get that. I know having blended families are hard, but how do you get to know them more unless you spend time with them. And besides, the "company" will only be there from 3pm on Saturday until about 9pm that evening. We would still have all day on Friday and Sunday to do things. I am going to have to pray about this alot. I don't want one part of my family keeping another part away. Whatever happened to The Waltons???

Wedding Moments...

It was just a perfect day...no rain, bright sunshine...beautiful. The wedding went off without a hitch. The bride was so radiant and the groom was very handsome. They had a lovely ceremony and I think the whole thing was enjoyed by all. I didn't cry, but almost did when Joe and I danced our dance. We have a very funny story about the song we danced to, "Blessed" by Elton John. Joe had called and asked me to think of a song we could dance to. So I started looking on line to find songs that mothers of the grooms and the groom dances to and this one came up. I have always liked Elton John's music (NOT his lifestyle though!!) and Duane liked the words too. So just as I was about to call Joe to tell him I had found one, he called me and yes, you guessed it....he had picked the same song!!! is that just amazing? It was a very special moment as we danced to this song and I was so proud to be his Mom.

Too Much To Do....That is being a MOM!!!

Today is Friday and I was thinking of all the things that have to be done before next Friday. I don't like to wish my life away because I really enjoy my life. But right now I am ready for the next week to be over. Tomorrow I am going to oldest son's house to help him pack. He is moving next Thursday in with his brother and is starting a new job with Duane on the 27th. He needed to make some changes in his life and start again after his divorce this past January. It will be very nice having both boys in the city with me again. Sunday we have church, which I didn't get to attend last week due to the nasty cold I had. I am hoping to get laundry done but I would really like to go visit new grand baby Leighton!! I am having withdrawal from the cuddling baby!! Monday is house cleaning night. Tuesday night we have our small group. Wednesday is hair color and cut for the wedding. Thursday is meeting for Sunday School class party on Sunday. Friday is wedding rehearsal. Saturday is wedding. Sunday is donut duty, Sunday School class party and fixing lunch for Joe and Kim's friends and family to have while watching them open wedding gifts. I just got really tired reading what I just typed!!! I think I should go home tonight and take a long nap, it will be the only one I get!!!

I Know Why God Gave Me Kids When I Was Young!!!!!

I had my first son when I was 19 and my second when I was 23 and now, being a grandma at 48, I know why I am so glad I had them when I was young!!! We picked Sydney up Friday night and I don't think she stopped talking, moving, asking questions or just being cute until we took her home on Sunday afternoon!!! And during all of this weekend, I had caught a terrible cold that was making me feel terrible. But we still had a wonderful time. We took her to the coolest pumpkin patch on Saturday, and she had a great time. They had baby animals, lots of pumpkins and even a corn box to play in...(which is the same as a sand box, but with corn!!!) She got to pick out some pumpkins just her size, play with other kids and pet the calves. Then on Sunday, since I had a meeting after church, Sydney helped Papaw clean up the coffee area that we were in charge of for this week. She made several new friends and I am sure the coffee area is the cleanest ever!!! After church we went to Chuck E. Cheese!!!! Now 20 years ago when I took my boys there, it had terrible pizza, crowded play areas and it seemed Chuck just didn't show up much. This one in Indy was awesome!! The first thing that was just so neat was that when you walked in, each person in YOUR group got a invisible ink stamp of the same number. I was not sure what that was for, but when we left...they check to make sure you have all the people you brought in and ONLY the people who you brought in!!! Unfortunately now days you have to worry about someone taking your kids, even at a pizza joint. But their system works great. And now at Chuck E. Cheese, the pizza was so good!! They had tons of things for toddlers to play with and on and each game took only 1 token. We got a large pizza, (loaded with good stuff), 4 drinks and 40 tokens for $19.00!!! Of course we had a coupon from www.chuckecheese.com which is a great place to sign up for coupons if you plan on going anytime soon. Sydney played, ate and played some more for 2 hours!! By now my cold is worse, but I was enjoying watching her have a good time, I didn't even notice! When we got ready to leave, I told Papaw that she would be asleep before we got out of Indy and sure enough, right after we went past 116th street on I69, she was out!!! We finally got home around 6pm and we were both so tired!! But having grand kids is so much fun and we are looking forward to when Leighton can come too and when we have more grand kids....we just have to get more of our kids married first!!!

So Blessed...

Tonight we are picking up our granddaughter so that she can spend the weekend with us. I am very excited to see her and the new brother, but I also know from experience that I am going to be exhausted by Sunday!! It seems I have forgotten how much energy a 2 year old has and this one I think has twice as much as normal. But one thing I do know for sure, is that we are so blessed to have healthy grand kids. I have been keeping up with some blogs of parents who have sick children and I know in my heart that God only gives sick kids to special parents. I don't know what I would do if I had to deal with what some of these parents go through. So this weekend, as we spend time with our granddaughter, I will be continually thanking God for our blessings and I will be praying for those who are struggling with sick children. I will pray for healthy and wellness, comfort and peace to each and everyone of them.

A New Grandson!!! I love being a Memaw!!!

Friday was the big day!! Leighton Alexander James Hamm was born at 8:11am!!! He entered the world a whopping 9 pounds 8 ounces and 21 inches long!! He and his Mommy and Daddy are doing so good. There is nothing like seeing a grandchild for the first time. I thought when Sydney was born that it was just the biggest thing yet, but it happened again when Leighton was born. I love our babies...they are so precious and God has blessed us so much with healthy grandkids. And He has blessed our kids with great kids!!!! I am so thankful that Kilyssa and Travis allow me to be a part of all this and to be a Grandma to the kids. I know that things can get complicated at times, but I am just thankful for all of them, that they are in my life!!!

Fall ..... Ya Gotta LOVE It!!!!

I have finally gotten to the age where my "favorites" are changing. If you asked me 5 years ago what my favorite time of year was, I would, without a doubt day SUMMER!!! I loved the sun, loved tanning by the pool, loved the whole long sunny days of summer. But now, as I ever so slowly creep towards turning 50, I am becoming a Fall type of gal. I'm not into laying in the sun, sweating to death for a great tan. I only went to the pool one time this summer. Having night sweats is enough sweating for me! I really like this 75 ish degree stuff. When you can sit on the deck, enjoy the sunshine and the cool breezes. I didn't think I would ever get to this point, but I am really excited about fall this year. Of course, getting a new grandson and a new daughter in law this fall makes this one really special. But even without those huge events, I love the fall weather. Makes me want to have more than I should have cups of Starbucks Pumpkin Lattes. I even have a craving for apple cider!! So I am going to enjoy all the days of September and October more than I ever have, attend more fall festivals, have more lattes and leave the sweating to the night time!!!

My Amazing Husband

I am not the bragging kind, but I have to brag some today. I have the most amazing husband!!! I know there are several out there who would say they have a husband more amazing, but I don't think I can agree!! Yesterday I had a very long day and I was very worried all day about my oldest son. I worked late and didn't get home until almost 7pm. Since Duane's son was at work, we were alone for supper. All during the meal he kept asking me if I was OK and I said sure, I'm fine. But he knew better. After dinner, he told me to just go out to the deck and sit. He would take care of the kitchen and would bring us coffee when he was done. That sounded so pleasant to me! So Beau (my puppy) and I went out to watch the birds from the deck. After just a few minutes, here comes my wonderful husband with the small TV from our extra room. He has rabbit ears on it and is setting it up so I can watch TV outside!!! Now I'm not a huge TV fan, but it was nice to just sit there, outside in the beautiful weather and watch jeopardy. In fact, it was so nice, I stayed there until 10pm when Dancing With The Stars was over!!! My husband knew what I needed more than I did and he knew that small jester would be so awesome to me!

Mondays...ugh!!!

I'm not a fan of Mondays. I quite prefer Sunday evenings. I don't know why, but seems like all my Sundays evenings are quiet and enjoyable and Mondays are a pain. I know today I am not praying enough because I have a terrible case of the worry warts. I'm worried about alot of things and I know that I need to just hand them over to God and be done with it. But being who I am, I will hold on to these things and make my Monday that much worse....until tonight in my prayers, when I will give it all up to Him. Common sense says that I should just do that now. I don't think I have much common sense on Mondays. Maybe that is what I should pray for on Sunday evenings...common sense for Mondays!!

Those Who Have None....and Dont Mind

Today I had a not so good lunch. I didn't bring my turkey from home like I had been doing all week. I guess I just wasn't hungry for turkey. So when lunch time came, I realized that it was raining, there was not room in the budget for going out to eat and all I had was a can of soup. Vegetable and Noodle Soup. (notice there is no meat!! Zero points on Weight watchers!!!) So, I had soup. As I was eating this soup, I was reading the current book I'm on, Cure for the Common Life by Max Lucado. In it he talks about finding your place in God's Plan. Here is what caught my eye at the end of chapter 13..."Do all the good you can, by all the means you can, in all the ways you can, in all the places you can, at all the times you can, to all the people you can, as long as ever you can." Now I'm sure you are wondering what this has to do with my soup.? As I posted before, one of my current passions is Third Phase and the food pantry box at our church. Husband and I have been working on this box since March and it is done now. As I was reading the book and eating the soup, I realized how very much God has blessed me. I didn't have to go to a food pantry to get my soup, just took it out of my pantry. There were other choices I could have made. God has blessed me with those choices. But what if I didn't have a choice. What if that pantry was empty? How would I feed my family tonight? Even the dog? Where would his food come from? There are so many people out there who struggle everyday just getting food on the table. It's not because they are not working to provide for their family, it is because rent, gas to get to work, utilities etc are consuming their income. So I would like to say to anyone who reads this...do what you can...as much as you can. Maybe you are like me and missing a lunch would not be a health issue and you could put that can of soup in the food pantry box? I don't think any of the people who come to Third Phase would mind a can of soup. In fact, they would truly appreciate it if it meant their kids would have something to go with the bread. God tells us so many times to love our brothers, take care of them and help all those who need it. I want to do more than the food box, so I'm going to post a blog on our church networking site also. We have to do more than what we have done in the past to take care of God's family. There is no reason for anyone to be hungry. Give them food, give them prayer and most of all, give them The Lord....

Third Phase

We had a wonderful day at church yesterday. Duane and I are part of the LOTS Ministry. LOTS stands for Least Of Those Served. We have been working on a food pantry box since March and it is finally finished! Our church collects non perishable food and takes it to a food pantry for Hamilton County at Third Phase. You always hear how Hamilton County is the fastest growing county and there are so many nice houses and such. But there are also a huge number of people who cannot afford to feed their families. Third Phase has been serving over 40 families per DAY from their food pantry. This is a real passion of mine, to help raise the awareness of the needy, especially families who have kids and need food. I know that there are kids everywhere in our area that only get what they are served at school at lunch each day. I am so glad there are places like Third Phase that are able to help. I just hope we can make a difference from the food we collect at our church. I will pray about this alot.

Continuing....Duane

When I moved to Indianapolis, it was very scary at first. My friends, Phil, Sherry, Dennis and Eileen moved me here and then they were gone. Shortly after that, I met a new friend, Doug. and would you believe that meeting Doug lead me to a church?? Wow...God is so funny sometimes!! In fact, it lead me to the church that the minister was the brother of a very good friend of mine from my old church!!! Hazel Dell Christian Church has been my church home since August 2002 and I know without a doubt God lead me there.

My new job in Indianapolis is perfect. I work for a small CPA firm and I do bookkeeping and tax preparation. It is easy for me to say that I love my job. The people I work with are a very good group and we all work well with each other. Our office is small, we only have 5 people. I have learned so much from my days at H&R Block! Every day is new and I look forward to being here.

In the fall of 2002, just when things were good, my Dad got sick. He was diagnosed with kidney cancer at Thanksgiving, had surgery to remove a 2 pound tumor from his kidney on December 18th and passed away on May 1, 2003. I miss him so much and still expect him to answer the phone sometimes when I call my Mom. I think losing a parent so young, he was only 66, is devastating. Each and everyday I think of something that has happened in our family, with Mom or one of the grandkids and wonder what would Dad do or think if he were here. My youngest son is getting married in October and it breaks my heart that my Dad wont be there, even after 5 years. But, God is good and he brought someone into my life just at the right time who could give me the security and love my Dad used to.

My husband, Duane. We met because he was bored and was okay with spending $14.95. the whole story of that is rather long, but cutting to the chase...we met, dated and have been married for 4 years now. Duane is an amazing man, who has come to be the best friend I have ever had. Marrying someone with 4 kids and an ex-wife is not easy. We have had some serious issues, but with prayer and lots of it, we are doing good. Everyday with this man is amazing. I understand my past and what I had to go through to get to this point. I count my blessings everyday for someone who completes me like he does. I know he loves The Lord like I do and having someone like him in my life to worship with is just so cool! We have so much fun together doing some of the most ordinary things. We love working on our house, landscaping and other things. We have a huge deck on the back that we sit on daily, drinking coffee and just catching up with each other's day. He has been so good to my boys and has taught them so much. He even gets along with my Mom!!! Not a day goes by that I dont wish my Dad could have met him. I know they would be good friends. He loves college football and I love baseball, so we have attended lots of Indianapolis Indians games and IU football games. In fact, he is so nice, the football and basketball games we attended at IU were both against U of I!!! and he was even ok that I wore my Illini colors and he was dressed from head to toe in Hoosier Red!!

We are now getting into a different time of our lives. We have a 2 yr old granddaughter, Syndey, who is just the best. And on Sept 26th we will welcome new baby Leighton into our family with his Mommy and Daddy and li'sis Sydney. We are so excited to meet him!! Even though I am technically the "step-grandma", I still feel like they are part of me. Kilyssa and Travis have been so nice to let me be MeMaw too!! The other part of our lives that is changing is that we are now taking care of things for our parents. Duane's Mom had breast cancer last year and is doing fine now. His Dad, Robert, had a stroke on May 1, 2008 and is unable to see. The only thing the stroke affected was his sight and it has been so frustrating for him to deal with. My Mom is doing pretty good, just gets bored with no family to take care of anymore. We all try to keep her busy. Our lives are very full and we are blessed...Duane and I!!!

Same Trip, Different Road

This weekend I am helping my sister move. She has been married for almost 26 years and is getting a divorce. I have been there before, but it was a road I was hoping she would not have to travel. She has two kids who are out of high school and one is in her last year of college. She and her husband have nothing in common any longer. I know she has been unhappy for a long time and I give her credit for staying long enough to raise the kids. As a Christian, I wish she could have made it work. As a sister, I see her pain and understand. So now she is doing something she has never done before, living along. She went straight from our childhood home to being married, so this will be very new for her. Of course the kids will still be around and actually each of them have their own room in her new home. But she will be for the first time a single Mom, living alone. I think she will be surprised that she will actually enjoy it most of the time. But there will be days that she will be lonely. She has a great support group of girlfriends, who I am sure will keep her busy. But I am still very sad. I guess I was hoping she will do what I had not been able to do in the past, stay married to the man she fell in love with first. I know that God has plans for her. I know He is in her life. Now that I have traveled past these roads and am finally with the man God intended me to be with, I can only hope that she will someday have that same opportunity. But for now...I will be there for her..help her decorate her new place and be the best sister I can be.

The Beginning....

I have often thought of doing a blog but never really considered my life to be so interesting. But I think that this is more for me than anyone else. Just to take a small part of my day to put down my thoughts and where my life is headed.
I am from a very small town in west central Indiana. Raised by very strict parents who believed a goods day work was important for all 4 of their kids. I'm the oldest of 4, 2 boys and 2 girls, which my parents had in 5 years! I think my Mom was a very organized person and managed to keep all of us on track most of time. She once told me that she didnt feel like she had accomplished anything in her life. But when I pointed out that she raised, mostly on her own since my Dad worked alot, 4 great kids who turned out pretty good, she could see that I was right. I know that at one time or another each of us disappointed her, she knows we all love her very much.
I have had lots of ups and downs in my life, 2 divorces, job changes, stress of raising 2 boys alone, but I know that God has been there with me all the time. I didnt realize that in the beginning, but he has shown me time and time again that He was there at all the right times. It wasnt until after my 2nd divorce that I found Him again and began to live life like He wanted. I became friends with some of the most Godly people I have ever known. Even though that group of people are not in my daily life now, God has given me a new group that is just as loving and encouraging as the first. He is like that, ya know? Always gives us just what we need, when we need it.
Just like when He moved me from Danville to Indianapolis. That was the biggest change I had ever made in my life and He was in control the whole way. I was fine at my job of 12 1/2 years in Danville. Had a great church family, great friends, my family was all very close..why would I change all that to move to a city where I had none of those things?? Because God knew where He wanted me and why. So I will leave this and continue my journey tomorrow. If you are reading this, thanks. I would love to hear from you. Especially old friends!!!